have you ever

Have you ever done anything for the plain ol' pleasure of it, unobstructed by should's or would's, could's or if's, not for some ulterior motive or grand chance at success, not for physical survival or to serve a greater good, not to boost yourself up high by people's fleeting approval, not even for practical, reliable common sense, but only for the primal, selfish, raw, giddy joy of it?


Have you ever done something because your curiosity got the best of you, leading you into a mystery that you didn't quite understand but had to see for yourself, something that you weren't quite sure you'd fit into, something that was foreign and exotic, something you could see yourself a part of but didn't quite know how or why?


Have you ever made a decision that would determine a long string of future consequences that you can't even begin to fathom, but today, for some reason, perhaps the faint stirring in your gut or the subtle and inexplicable tug of the heart, nudges you to utter a "yes" to the thing you don't really know what you're saying "yes" to?


Have you ever pondered the scale of failure your "yes" is setting you up for, the magnitude of risk you've willingly flung your delicate psyche into, the invitation for others to deem your efforts magical or minuscule, how the unsympathetic floor will feel when your body pounds into it, and if you will be strong enough to get back up when that happens, because it is bound to happen?