my song.

There are certain songs that hit me deep in the chest.  They slice right through the layers of cynicism, apathy, boredom, or fear that can surround my heart at any given moment.  They penetrate  to the core and draw out what is real and true with scary precision.

Do you have a song like that right now?

I do.  It came on my iPod last night as I was driving along this stretch of the road...

Highway 29.  Northbound to Napa.  

The sun was setting and I was driving to Yountville to meet my dear friend Kelly for dinner to celebrate her 30th birthday.  There I was, driving along, in awe of the majestic sunset, the hypnotic rows of grapevines that border the road, and the precious rarity of driving without kids in the backseat, and suddenly this song came on.  It was perfect.  It was one of those moments when you feel like God really sees you.

The first time I heard this song was one Sunday morning in church, about a year ago.  Chris had just left for Afghanistan.  I was a real mess.  It was all I could do to get myself and the girls dressed, fed, and ready for church on Sunday mornings.  The promise of at least one hour of free childcare was usually enough motivation to get me going, but by the time I arrived in the sanctuary, I felt too tired and wrung out to offer anything to God. 

There are certain times in your life when worship songs mean more to you than they ever have before, when the lyrics touch something deep inside that aches and grieves, when you cling to the truth of the words and the beauty of the music like your very life depends on it.  This was one of those times. 

I'd never heard or sung this song before, but the power and beauty of the lyrics and music hit me hard. I remember opening my mouth to sing and tasting the salt from my tears instead.  I had a hard time getting any sound out. Singing this song made feel God's power and majesty in a whole new way. It made me want to fall on my knees and raise my hands and really worship Him in the midst of all my fatigue and fear, and I'm not even "that kind of person."  I'm reserved. I sing quietly at church and keep my hands to myself. But not when this song comes on. This song unravels all of my pretensions and reservations. 

This song that I'm talking about is called REVELATION SONG. Have you heard it? I can't wait to belt this song out in heaven. Maybe I'll have a good voice then. My favorite version right now is by Jesus Culture...

Jesus Your name is power

breath and living water

such a marvelous mystery...

Be my everything

Be my everything.

What is "your" song right now?